Writers Block

I have been writing in one form or another for almost all my life -  my Nanny Gillam gave me my first journal, a puffy plastic covered white one with a pink flamingo on the front with a lock you could pick with a bobby pin, when I was just in the 4th grade. And I wrote the shit out of it! And then got another, and another, and another - when I didnt have a fancy one - I used a scribbler (<- one of my favorite words in the english language BTW) - or just blank paper and put them in a box. I wrote about my day, my feelings, my crushes, my parents, my pets - I wrote poetry, copied down the lyrics to my fave songs, drew pictures, and stuck in magazine pictures that I loved - I did it all. And I have kept all of these things to remind me of how my priorities and view of things have changed and how incredibly silly (and sometimes clever) I was, even as a kid.
But, as of late - the thoughts haven't been coming together for me as clearly - writers block in the truest form. And not just writers block - almost complete creativity shut down. Unfinished canvas litter the sun room upstairs, a journal with only a few pages filled out in it, boxes of pictures and envelopes filled with travel stuff dying to be organized stacked in the spare room, no new recipes have been tried, and a blog with fewer entries in it than ever. 
What is happening to me? Is this what comes with age? Complete lack of imagination and creative drive? I can only hope not. This entry is purely an attempt at getting the juices flowing again - waking up the right side of my brain.
Here is hoping.

My Love vs. My Health

Hey Everyone! Its been a while! I have been married since August, and while I like to elk David that he is the love of my life, anyone that knows me knows that he's only edging out my love for Muai Thai Kickboxing and Brazilian Jiu Jitsu


by a small sliver. Lately my health hasn't been there, I've been having a hard time with my heart rate lately, and it's keeping me out of the gym. I miss my gym family so much, I miss the sport, the dedication and the push it takes.


I can't in right mind go to the gym and push myself like I want to, so I just haven't been going. And since I haven't been going there i've had to preoccupy myself with something else. So I started "stampin". Basically, I make my own cards haha. Here are some of my faves;

Where does the time go?!?

So I have been pretty much a failure with this 365 day photo Challenge.....

It is not for lack of taking pictures - because I have been!!! I have some great snow shots, and friend shots, and some at bowling - but getting the chance to upload them has been hectic.....

I don't know where the time is going - as I am waiting for the paint to dry on my nails - I realize how little time I have had lately. The bottle of nail polish has been sitting on the coffee table for about 2 weeks!!!!!

Even though my life SEEMS less stressful since the job chance and living arrangement change..... it is becoming abundantly clear that time is not something that I have a lot of with me new schedule and my guys sleep schedule. So between social activities (bowling, movies, etc), relationship, and chores - time to blog has been almost non-existent!

As if I need any more proof - it is January 21st and the Christmas Tree is still up....... not for lack of wanting to take it down......


Anyway, I think I may take another crack at the photo challenge. But - I always start things with the best of intentions.

What a day, what a day

It is just one of those days where my body was telling me not to bother to get up - and I should have listened to it.
Although there were some bright spots throughout the day (a hairbrained conversation with my dear friend Brad, working with Chad and Angela, making some headway with marketing, and going on a crazy grocery run with my guy) - there was an overhanging feeling of negativity - that was qualified by an odd situation at work - being over tired, etc etc.
But now all is well, getting to poke around playing games on my Pink Perfection all while enjoying a perfectly mixed Caesar (rim salt and all) and chilling on the couch.
The picture for today is a tribute to that -

Continuing with the photo blog

So - this is harder than I thought - but I am sure that I will get used to it.

It certainly is serving its purpose to make me look at things in a different way. For Example -

The January 4th Pictures were taken in the dead of night, I was making lunch and taking up some coffee at about 4:30 a.m. and besides the faint buzz of the radio - there was not a sound. And then it dawned on me, that everything on our house was in sync. How did it dawn on me? The Birds.....they were silent. Not a stir - Ringo in his Popplesque format and the finches in their nest (Cheshire woke up to look at me just to see what I was doing - he is by far the most hyper and alert of the bunch). It makes me happy that at last they are relaxed enough not to go into a squawking, chirping, jumping, frenzy whenever we enter the kitchen after dark. Just the idea that everything was operating in peace and unity under our roof made me happy - so My pictures for January 4th were these:

Ringo as a Popple

Cheshire looking at me and protecting Alice in the back of the nest.

On January 5th, I had the day off and was cleaning up in the kitchen - of course like most kitchen tables, it had mail, receipts, coupons, etc etc laid on top of it. Out of that pile of rubble came a little gem that brought a smile to my face - I am not sure why I love it - but I love it. It is a post card from a local Chinese Restaurant where I like to go eat (they have great and fresh sushi) - my name was put in a box with my birthday on it, and they sent this in the mail :) I love it.

And for January 6th -

A candid shot of my typical garb for writing these blogs. In my beloved Skull Candy Lime Green Headphones - bought as a treat to myself for travel and long walks - hair slicked back and my inside out hoodie. Life is good :)

New Years, New Years!

So to cover off my resolutions check list from last year:
Learn Spanish - um, unfortunately a classic fail on this one, I had no idea how much committment it will take to learn a new language - we have gone to Cuba AGAIN since I wrote my New Years Resolutions last year -and I was no further ahead of the game than I was last year. So - This is a carry over resolution.

Remain Debt Free - Done. And Double done. I am above board on all things and that makes me happy.

Back to my Original Downhome weight - Meh - who gives a shit about anything that has to do with Downhome? Since not working there anymore - I have been happier, and happier means healthier, and healthier means more active - hence I have been losing weight without all of the effort it would have took in that Vortex that Eats Joy.

Go to the Gym 3 times a week - Nope, decided to jog and use my Wii, cancelled my Gym membership and pocketed the money :)

Cut of Junk Food - done :)

Correct my Posture - Done. Bought a Dr. Ho Back machine.

Finally get my license - Done.

All the other little things - done as well - the level of negativity is nil, and when it does resurface - I remove myself from it. Drama has no part in my life anymore, and I am better for it.

So, for this year.

Minor stuff:
My carry over to learn Spanish.
Take a picture of something I find interesting, funny, special, each and every day of the year 2011.\

So since it is January 3rd here are my pictures and their explanations:

Our New Solid Silver Bottle Stopper in our NYE Champagne

A Snowflake from a Winter Wedding, January 2nd.

Our Fully Lit Christmas Tree - I figured we should get a picture before it is time to come down. 

Holy Hurricane Batman!