Complex Web

I try to explain where I am coming from in most situations and my reson for doing so - and yet - more times than not I am not met with understanding - or compassion - but conflict, hostility, or misplaced anger.
Me - being the paranoid, self-blaming person that I am, automatically assumes that it is something I have said or done to get this reaction from someone, and that it is my lack of communication or patience that has lead to being treated the way that I am.
But the truth of the matter is that I haven't.
The truth of the matter is that we have no control over anyone else in our lives or around us (unless they WANT to be controlled). We can only hope that they will respect us and treat us as we deserve to be treated. Try to understand, try to be compassionate.But there are no guarantees about that.
There is no physical law that will make that person be kind to you because you were kind to them, or love you because you love them, or (on the other hand) make you treat them poorly because they did to you, or hate them because they feel that way about you (sadly).We just go through life with expectations. Of each other, of ourselves, from our life.But no guarantees. Kind people get treated badly all the time. Mean people can, and will, prosper. You would like to think there is such a things as "come-uppin’s", but there isn't.
So, where do these expectations come from?Well, I would guess that they come from the fact that some, or many, people have them, that they DO act a certain way to get a certain thing in return, and if we all do that then we do, in some way or another, all get what we want.Until we run into someone who is not the norm.
Someone so self absorbed and without consequence that they say what they want, do what they want, whenever they want to whoever they want.
One could think that this is just our personal freedom to do all of the things that we want to do whenever we want to do them- and they would be right.
However, most of us do not do it at others expense.
Most of us are more mindful of what impact our actions will have on the others around us AS WELL AS OURSELVES.
Because we would not wish for anyone to disregard us in the same manner.Such a complex web we cast. I can't compare it to the cliché ripples in the water because it is much messier than that.
Ripples fade away, a web CAN be broken but the little sticky pieces stay stuck with us until we can find a way to cleanse ourselves or rub it off.
Just like actions.
Good or bad, the way a person treats you leaves an impression on you until something is done to change that. Sometimes you may choose to look past it and remember things that person has done in the past, either to hold onto what you love or to hold onto a grudge. But either way, that action sticks with you.
Bunching up in the cobwebs of your mind.I understand that the things that happen to us in our lives, make us who we are. But that doesn't always mean that it has made us better or stronger. And we would be crazy to think that it has.